Life is full of wonders

The time of sharing media content. The time of social networking and instant messages. The time which we might not feel or lose. Not always, not everyone, but judging from my own experience of 5-6 years of online breathing, I’d definitely say that more we limit it, more we live. There are for sure many advantages of sharing content and stay on the Internet, but sometimes it takes too much of our priceless time and we’d probably sorry for spending it like that later. It seems we’re contacted, but nothing can be exchanged by real meetings and emotions.

For me being more in front of laptop than without it is much easier to type than talk. I love writing, I found myself into poetry and article writing. I enjoy it much and I like to share it with people around me. Networking is good when u’re far from ur land and wanna stay in touch with people around the world. I remember the time when I deactivated FB and VK for one year. That was the year of learning, growing, discoveries and changes. It changed my life completely, I finally applied all theory of life to the reality, managed to organise my time and activities, been published and met a lot of great people who became my close friends. When u’re fully awake, not sleep-walking, u’re open for the true experience, for wonders.

We little understand how powerful we are, what’s in our hands. We tend to escape from ourselves due to many factors…We probably weren’t taught how to deal with the emotions, we hardly understand how to behave in a certain situation. I don’t want to generalise, I know there are so many enlightened people and those who are doing well at it, but also there are some who find it tough. I did, but u’d better go through it and learn out of it rather than just suffer and escape. All those troubles we meet up are for better, they are the lessons to be taught. If u manage to take it as a lesson, It’ll bring knowledge which u can’t just pick up from someone.

Recently I went to shrink to learn more about myself. After coming back from the UK it was unbearably difficult to stay in Russia, but I had my goals to achieve, not the external, but internal ones. I’d to deal with my childhood issues, bring them upward and accept. I’m not sure yet If it’s done completely, the life will show, but I started to feel freer and lighter. I want to share the way of positive thinking. Guys, it really works. So many situations and possibilities are depend on how we react on them, what we truly think.

The way of positive thinking works. It works if we allow it to work. There are many books written about spiritual laws of the universe. I’d just tell about those which I’ve learnt from my own experience. I remember once being shy and not talkative at all in London, learning English, I encountered a great teacher who helped me a lot to understand that truly NOBODY CARES. I took it from the positive side and it helped me. I was able to speak and grammar was on the high level, but I was so little confident of myself that I’d fuck up many speaking exercises. I thought I’d done thousands of mistakes and my accent is too Russian and what I tell is complete rubbish. But after those words said by John, I realised that it doesn’t matter, it’s my life and my own work on it. I believed in myself and In a short period of time (3 weeks) improved my English more than I did in 8 month staying at school. I passed two exams, one of which was CAE. And I’m glad I was ready to accept his teaching and words, was ready for the teacher. And it affected many spheres of my life.

In India there are so many great thoughts, books, religions and wise people concentrated on peace, no-harm, love, vegetarianism, better way of living. If we just could share this things which are truly important for everyone and each of us. If we were able to see the soul, not the cover of someone. Also I remember I was about 14 when started to build the way of positive thinking. It was hard time for me, I escaped from the reality as felt it was too fragile and unsafe, nobody could understand as I thought. It started from the book by Nikolay Kozlov, a friend of mine recommended me and I was reading one after another…Starting to understand more about people and became even farer from the society. On the other hand I could manage to socialise with those who were older than me and get on well with many people around. Then were ups and downs.

Also I remember as Pistis, a yoga teacher and a friend, said me that every year is getting better and better. And I believed in it, shared this thought. Realized that it’s true. Mum used to tell me that I’m in rush to become an adult, but I can say from my heart that I’m enjoying my adulthood. Being an adult means to learn how to decide for urself, make ur own choices, travel freely and do what u really like doing. It’s a secret everyone knows, but not that many use. Do what u like to do, doesn’t matter what others are thinking of it or saying. Even if u start playing drums not knowing how to – go for it. Go for everything that brings u happiness. There are no boundaries except those we create. We should not follow someone’s dreams and fulfill their expectations about us. We should believe in ourselves even if its hard and so on. Don’t expect someone to come and change ur life for better.

… What on the earth I am writing here? Who I am to teach?… (that’s my thought now)

But if we’re talking about the truth and belief, I want to think there is my right to share and explore and give. It’s always enjoyable to give, sometimes more than take. Freedom. It has to be somewhere. Where? Inside. There are hundreds of stories when people overcame their fears and complexes and achieved what they wanted. There are stories about disabled people who changed the world, who help people around, who chosen not to suffer, but act.

India reminded me that suffering is optional. And it teaches how to be free where you are. I encounter every day phrases and quotes and real examples of different way of living. Challenges are given to make us stronger. And the last thing I was trying to get for years and years…

You will be successful at whatever you throw yourself totally into.